"RED'S DAILY INSANITY"

AAAAAH!!!

2008-07-07T11:31:00.001-04:00

Son of a bitch!

I have poison ivy on my arm, and a sticker (at least thats what we called them as kids) stuck in my finger, and I can't get it out!!!!

Boo hiss.........

:(

2008-07-02T20:02:00.001-04:00

It wont be long now..maybe only days :(

Give my family and I strength to survive. Please.

Dad and ME vs Mother Nature

2008-06-29T09:51:00.003-04:00

Hey all!

My gosh, what a weather pattern we're under. It has stormed every day for the past week, and today is going to be no exception. So its a race to see what I can get done outside in between storms, or before - of course, what you can do with wet grass and plants is quite limited!! What a pain! I have so much to do! I have one more side of the house to powerwash, and it doesnt look like I'll get that done today...not that its too terribly upsetting, I hate powerwashing - I look like a drowned rat by the time I'm done..messy, wet, BLECH!!!

Dad is holding his own. We've had some really good times lately. Lots of friends are coming to visit before he passes, and its great to see people. Friday night we had a herd of friends come - we used to go fishing to Canada and TN with them, it was an RV caravan as far as the eye could see. Those were the best times of my life...camping and fishing for perch and eating it fresh that night. Anyhoo, they all came down to visit and catch up and reminisce. It was constant laughter. The best time. After they left dad said that was one of the best nights of his life and he will always remember it. Mission accomplished!

On a really sad note, last night mom and I went out to dinner after church - we weren't gone that long..I had to take her home afterwards...well I hear my cell ringing when we were almost there..couldnt answer it cause it was in the backseat - we pull in the driveway, I get it out and see its DAD! We run into the house...he's freaking out - he woke up and no one was there..he thought it was 8 am, not 8 pm. He'd called my phone 4 times in 3 minutes..he was shaking...it was heartbreaking. I said "dad, like anyone would just leave you!" We think he zonked out after taking his Methodone, and lost his bearings :(

On an upnote, I got to take advantage of the VS semi annual sale. THAT = HAPPINESS. I shopped on line and got free shipping by searching for coupon codes (woo hoo) - that saved me $11!!! Well, I went to the mall yesterday to take advantage yet again..cause I had a coupon for a free cotton panty..and $10 off of a $50 purchase for filling out their customer service survey..SWEET! So I saved $15 and got some gorgeous, gorgeous panties...I heart panties! I'm so glad I get to buy them on a regular basis - THANKS GUYS! I also hit Bath n Body works - their sale is unreal. I got 2 bubble baths and 2 lotions and a purse sized spray for $11!!!! All of it was 75% OFF!!! I think I'll go back for more. That's just too good to pass up and I always need good bubble bath and lotion (both of which are hard to find).

So the dating thing isn't going so well....all my fault. Lots of hits from hotties on AFF, but I am, in all honesty, too distracted to meet anyone. Things are just too uncertain right now and my interest in sex has dwindled tremendously as a result ( dont get me wrong, I still masturbate darned near every night and always when I'm prepping panties). So lets rephrase...My interest in sex with anyone other than myself has dwindled, LOL. I've also managed to play host to a nasty sinus - type bug for over a week now, and its kicking my ass...darned effin' germs! Yesterday was rough..slept til 10- which is unusual now, then went back to bed at 12 noon til almost 3. Then I was zonked out by 10 pm last night!!!!

Goals for today: Weed wack around the side of the house. Plant my ornamental grasses and more sunflowers. Mow the front yard. Finish hanging the curtains. Cut up the watermelon on the counter. Scrub the bathroom. Sweep the kitchen floor. Make a video for someone. Eek..that's quite the list. Ugh.

Hope all is well with everyone!!

Just randsom stuff...and DAD

2008-06-22T10:31:00.002-04:00

I'm typing in gray today, because it reflects my mood of late. I've been sad, and pissy and grouchy - the stresses of every day life these days are really taking a toll on me, physically and emotionally. My dad's terminal illness, work, trying to majorly overhaul the exterior of the house (paint - 100% done by me from start to finish), money, gas prices (I drive 60 miles each day) - its no wonder I'm pretty much a wreck.

Dad is "holding his own." The vicadin isnt working, so now he's on methadone for pain. He has pancreatic cancer. They just started him on the methadone a few days ago, but have already had to increase the dosage. He is jaundiced..he looks like a zombie - like one of those people that have been bitten and are starting to "turn"..I know that's a weird analogy, but when you grow up watching horror flicks like that, it doesnt seem so weird. His personality hasnt changed.he's still funny and sassy, but I know the end is very near...and I do now know how to deal with this. I am emotionally unprepared and don't think there is anything I can do to "get" prepared.

Why do people have to die? I mean, why can't we all stay young forever..and be a happy family forever. Go fishing, watch NASCAR together from the infield of Daytona...collect shells on the beaches of Florida together...why do people have to get sick and suffer? It isnt fair.

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ASSHOLE ALERT: "The Plumber"....as referenced in previous posts..gosh, what does one say. An eternal asshole, self centered. I had a moment of weakness last weekend and we hooked up. Guess I needed a nice big one and a hot sweaty guy on top of me. Oh well, such is life. Well...this past Friday night...3 am..he's ringing my doorbell...tapping on my window...of course, I was asleep. I ignored him. Not in the mood to be awakened, especially for a booty call...yesterday, I noticed he STOLE MY BROKEN CEMENT GOOSE off the front porch. I am pissed! That goose was my grandmas - the grandma that died last year...it is the only thing I wanted after she died, because she loved that darned thing..loved dressing it up - I'd buy her clothes for it...Yeah, its broken..but only because I havent figured out what adhesive I need to put it back together. I want my @#$# goose back. I sent him a text message telling him to bring it back and why, and it has yet to appear...SO NOT FUNNY (ok, the premise is kinda funny, but the fact it was grandmas makes it NOT!).

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So, I've been working on the house here and there every weekend...getting it ready to paint. I've powerwashed half of it..what a @Q#$ chore. I've picked the color (its called "silver charm"). I will have white trim, not sure of the accent color yet. Powerwashing is so messy. Ick. But there is great satisfaction in DIY! I did get 6 windows replaced - THANK YOU TO ALL OF MY CUSTOMERS, AND UNCLE SAM. Without you, I would not have had the cash for this! I still had to borrow $600 from my sister, but regardless..the windows are in and I'm happy :) So nice to have real Energy Star windows. The OLD windows were the original from the house, from 1963. Yeah, they were awful. I'd like to get 3 more before winter (about $750), but I dont see how that will happen). I have taken some pictures of the house as a "work in progress", but they're still on the camera. I will definitely post them in the near future.

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Guess I'll end this entry for now, I need to take some pictures for some on-line orders that are behind. I havent felt "sexy" lately, so its hard to take pictures when you feel fat, LOL. So I'm gonna take them today before I start stuffing me face! HAAAA!!!

Much love to all.

What does one do....

2008-06-13T22:16:00.002-04:00

When they're told their father has 2-8 weeks to live?

I dunno..I am numb. I feel a need to be self destructive...like drink myself into oblivion to try and forget this isnt happening...I cant believe this is happening.

Hospice comes in on Monday.

I cant write anymore now.

My best friend lost EVERYTHING - Horrible HOUSE FIRE - SEEKING DONATIONS

2008-05-10T08:56:00.004-04:00

Hello everyone.

First, this is not a happy post. It is a request for help from those that like to do something for others that are less fortunate.

Earlier this week, I found out that my best friend lost EVERYTHING, including their vehicle, in a house fire last week. This is a family of 6, that was immediately made to be homeless :( My friend, John, has been nothing but an amazing person to me. He's always been there for me, and now it's my turn to be there for him when he needs me most.

I have attached a few pictures of the fire (I have more if anyone is interested).

I am collecting cash and gift cards to give to him and his family to get them through this. Yes, they were insured (PHEW), but it will take time to rebuild. They are currently staying with friends. Below is a list of local stores with gift card programs (and URLs) that would be really helpful:

Target: http://www.target.com/GiftCards/b?ie=UTF8&node=14061591

Meijer: http://www.meijer.com/gifts/main.jsp

Walmart: http://www.walmart.com/giftcards?fromPageCatId=14503

Lowes: http://www.lowes.com/lowes/lkn?action=productList&view=home&category=All+Occasion+Gift+Cards&N=5001702

Speedway (gas): http://www.speedway.com/CreditAndPrepaid/FuelAndGift.aspx

Gift cards/cash can be sent to me at my PO Box, for delivery to John and his family:

PO Box 204

Lancaster, OH 43130

Thank you in advance for your help.

FREE PICTURE CD/Extended through Sat 1159 pm

2008-04-30T08:44:00.001-04:00

Hello:

Several weeks ago, I sent out a message that everyone that places an order from Coderedhead.net gets their choice of a free CD through the end of April.

Well, today is the last day in April! However, I will extend this offer to anyone that places an order through Saturday, up until 1159 PM :)

Keep in mind, this is regardless of when I SHIP your order. If you want to take advantage of the CD but not receive your package until a later time (for example, mid-may), please let me know.

I'll take care of you :)

Thanks to everyone that has taken advantage so far!

Ramblings....

2008-04-20T10:29:00.002-04:00

First things first, site news! If you didnt receive the email notification last weekend, everyone that places an order through the website, GETS A FREE PICTURE CD (your choice of Volumes), as long as the order is PLACED IN APRIL! A sweet deal!

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I haven't blogged in forever. I kinda feel guilty. I've been busy, and this past week, not feeling so well. I think its because I'm out of Nexium, so I've felt nauseous all of the time. Stupid insurance company doesnt have it on their approved medication list, so it's taking longer to get it filled. I sent them a nastygram Friday asking them what the holdup is, because I feel like CRAP! Maybe I can guilt them into sending it out quicker..Whatever, but it's worth a try.

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Baby Ray is growing like a weed...he gained a POUND last week! My sister called him "hogzilla" - ha ha..that breast milk is good stuff! I didnt get to see him 'cause I was feeling bad, but I totally miss him so I definitely gotta get there soon.

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A few weeks ago I had a date with someone I met at Adultfriendfinder. I know, seems so taboo. But I was totally drawn to his personality. I AM SO GLAD I DID! He is a totally awesome guy, and way cuter in person. NO, I didn't sleep with him - just because I met him on an adult site doesnt mean I jumped in the sack right away. I dont make a very good slut, LOL, do I! I really wanted to see him this weekend, but he was sick (and I wasn't at the top of my game either), so we're gonna get together next weekend..then I can be a slut, since its the 2nd date...*wink*

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Its also time for me to start planning my biggest home project yet - EXTERIOR PAINT! I'm excited and nervous, it is quite the undertaking, because of the prep work needed..I have wood siding (original to my 60's ranch). It is in great condition, but peeling something awful. I've printed out information from L owe's website about the project, and I've been looking for different paint schemes as well. I've looked at many, but keep going back to something that looks nice and "clean". I really dig this house:

http://www.mikesokolsky.com/westwood/homeAndGarden.html

A special thanks to Jack for all of the auctions you've won...you've really helped me with the $$ to make this a reality!

Well, I best go for now..lots to do today!

THE STORY OF AUNT SHMOO

2008-04-06T09:17:00.002-04:00

There once was a girl named ..well, "me". Born in a trailer park in the 70's.

5 years later she suddenly had a sibling, ....."sis".

"Me" and "sis" had a great childhood...lots of awesome vacations, lots of love. We never wanted for anything.

"Me" and "sis" didn't like each other so much growing up...I pretty much picked on her all of the time. Yeah, even through high school. Our relationship didn't change until she left for college. For some reason, it flip flopped overnight. All of a sudden, I liked my "sis"...and I missed her. Having her away for years (while she puttered around the country for education and boys), was hard. I wanted to have her close to me.

All the while, despite our separate lives and completely different personalities, we shared one thing - the desire to NEVER REPRODUCE. It's odd really..didn't make sense. There was no basis for it. Our family was awesome!

Well...as years go by..."sis" actually found a soulmate, and married. Of course, I'm like a tumbleweed drifting in the dating world, but that's OK - really! Pressure's off me to spawn, and placed directly on her. She battled with the decision...still never really wanting to reproduce. The decision was "the 5 year plan." After 5 years of being married, we shall REVISIT the idea of making a bean (aka "kid").

As we all know, sometimes the "best laid plans" just don't quite go the way you want them to. Instead of "revisiting" at 5 years, BLAMO - the seed is planted, and "sis" is preggers. It was a very, very difficult first few months for our family, I'll leave it at that.

I kinda flipped out, and had myself sterilized so I would not get pregnant! (oh come on, things were a bit different for me, I didnt even have a boyfriend, let alone a mate!). Sis kind of hated me for that...but, I am no spring chicken and there's no long term anything on the horizon for me..so it's all good..

So...pregnancy progresses..."sis" was sick for 4 months :( Never ever did feel good. It hurt me to see her feel so crappy - she's always "on the go" - here and there, so watching her stopped in her tracks was difficult (she called it "pregnancy jail") :)

The time was approaching..she continued to get bigger and bigger (sis was such a hot pregnant chic - I didnt know that was possible. From behind you could not tell she was pregnant! It was all belly. She was adorable, but you couldn't tell her that).

Due date approaching...baby Ray does not want to come out. No dilation still, and we're only 4 days away from the due date. Decision is made to induce. So on 3/31, the process starts. I went to visit sis after work. 10 hours in, still only 3 cm.

It took 25 hours, changing positions a gazillion times, epidural, pain meds..exercise ball...before he was ready. Finally, on 4/1, out comes Baby Ray...the new love of my life.

The first time I met him, I was instantly in love - maybe for the first time in my life. He was merely an hour old, tiny and pink and perfect....BABY RAY, meet your AUNT SHMOO...

Life is forever changed by this little amazing creature, that my sister made. She made him! It really is mind boggling...I just want to snuggle him and eat him up! Never thought I'd feel this way about anything, especially a BABY!!! A BABY!!!

Baby Ray, Aunt Shmoo loves you..and we're gonna have the best time together!!!

World's Shortest Fairytale

2008-03-22T09:44:00.002-04:00

I love this, I have to share! I borrowed it from an amazing lady's blog, Mupdit.

World's Shortest Fairytale

Once upon a time, a guy asked a girl, 'Will you marry me?' The girl said 'NO!'
And the girl lived happily ever after and went shopping, dancing, lunching,
drank martinis. Always had a clean house, never had to cook, had sex with whomever she pleased, did whatever the hellshe wanted, never argued, didn't get fat,
traveled more, had manyboyfriends, saved more money, and had all the hot water to herself. She watched chick flicks, never wore lacy lingerie that went up her ass, had high self esteem, ever cried or yelled, felt and lookedfabulous in sweat pants, and farted whenever she wanted.

The End

You can read this awesome chic's blog at this URL: http://jackculdesac.blogspot.com/

YAHOO MESSENGER CHAT - WEDNESDAY 3/19 8 PM EST

2008-03-17T21:14:00.000-04:00

YAHOO MESSENGER Chat Scheduled - Wed 3/19

Join me for a Yahoo chat session Wednesday night, 8 pm EST U.S. for approximately 1/2 hour.

Send me an add request, with a note that you're joining for the chat session, so I know who you are.

ID: WHITETRASHPRINCESS43130

See you soon!

Excision #2 Complete.

2008-03-16T12:18:00.003-04:00

Hey all.

Gosh, what a week. Monday 3/10 I went back to have my melanoma removed. I had the assistance of valium. VALIUM RULES. Perhaps it was not as traumatic because I knew what was coming, or maybe it was the medication. Regardless, I sailed through it like a champ! I did NOT come close to passing out, but I did shed a tear when he started poking me with the needles to numb me (I don't think I'll ever get over that part of it). It didnt seem as bad this time either because after he shot me up, I didnt lay there and wait forever before he came back and performed the procedure. He numbed me up and went right to work (no time to lay there and think about what's coming).

I have more stitches this time (8), and the cut is a good 2 inches wide. EDIT: I was able to add pictures! This incision is a week old - it was really icky the day or two afterwards..still not pretty though :( When you remove a melanoma you must go wider and deeper. I see why this can be so disfiguring. Mine was stage 0, and it was the size of a pencil eraser. Best case scenario really.

The day after the removal was HELL though. I can't believe how terrible I felt. I hurt so bad, and I cant exactly pop a vicadin at work. I had a terrible headache too. I dont know how I made it through 8 hours. I havent been able to wear a bra for a week now (the incision is right on the bra line on my side) - that feels really weird when you have boobs the size of mine. I've been wearing huge sweatshirts to work!!! Hopefully I can make a bra work by tomorrow - I'm tired of feeling like a walking trash bag.

I took a picture of my boo boo, but when I pulled it off the camera it was terrible. So I'm going to try again under better lighting.

Also, here is a survey to test your sun smarts, and make recommendations for you as to how you can protect your skin. Take it!!!

http://www.aad.org/raysyourgrade/

I am also considering running an auction/contest to design a tattoo related to skin cancer and sun safety. If I do so, it will be under my glittergirljo ID at Ebanned.net.

If you're interested in making a donation to my tattoo fund, drop me a line and I will give you various payment options.

Hope everyone is having a great, snow free weekend!

SNOW PICTURES - 17 INCHES Official!

2008-03-09T12:00:00.002-04:00

Yep, official snowfall total for my town is 17" in a 24 hour period. Record breaking to say the least!

Here are some pics I took yesterday, which was actually before it all ended.

I was all set to go out and shovel again today - and one of my awesome neighbors snowblowed the driveway before I could get to it. Nice to have at least a few non-annoying, sweet people on the block!

Enjoy (cause I sure didnt..LOL)

Well since the google server isnt cooperating (I've had more trouble with this blog than you can imagine lately!), I've uploaded the photos to a directory.

You can see ALL OF THEM at the URL below:

http://www.coderedhead.net/snow08/

BLIZZARD...AAAH!

2008-03-08T10:25:00.003-05:00

Hey hotties!

Yeah, you read the title right...BLIZZARD conditions right now. AAAH! Last blizzard in this area was 1978...30 years ago !! Here's a neat link about the '78 blizzard, complete with a video :)

http://www.ohiohistory.org/etcetera/exhibits/swio/pages/content/1978_blizzard.htm

I left work early yesterday, and thank god I did..it was still a terrible 30 mile drive home, but I made it safely - slipping and sliding in my rear while drive Mustang (the only time I 2nd guess that purchase is on days like yesterday!).

My mom was let out of work early, and she had to turn around and come back to town (i.e. my house) because her county road was impassable..hadn't even seen a plow after a good 4-5 inches of initial snowfall.

There was a break of a few hours before the 2nd round hit. I shoveled the driveway...got up this morning to find that you can't tell I did ANYTHING! Completely covered! So that means there's at least already 10 inches on the ground..and it's still snowing to beat hell.

So, here I am...stuck. Blizzard warning is until this afternoon. I'm gonna head out and shovel again anyway, so it wont be so terrible when I do it again later today! Just popped some cinnamon rolls in the oven..got my coffee..have internet access..cable TV...all is as good as can be!! Pictures will follow once all this is said and done :)

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Monday is round 2 of cancer treatment. My pesky chest melanoma is being removed. I had the doc call in valium for me, because the 1st time was traumatizing to me and I need something to get through it. One of my girls from work is taking me (they are the BEST!) - that will make me feel better on top of the drugs, LOL.

The next month will be pretty crappy - in two weeks the stitches from Monday will come out AND in the same visit, I get another cancerous spot removed. So I'll be in full football like stitches for another month and on restricted movement because of the placement of those "spots".

All in all, it could be worse - for some reason though, I can't convince my subconsious of that completely - I haven't been able to sleep well at all :( DARN ME!

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To add to the crazy, my sis will be having her BEAN late this month, early April - so there will be a new baby in the family! At least I'm really excited about that! Maybe it will be a well needed distraction :) Baby Ray, we can't wait to see you!

Well, that's all for now..hope everyone is warm, and safe, and SNOW FREE!

M is for Melanoma

2008-02-25T19:02:00.007-05:00

One of my biopsy's came back as Stage "0" melanoma.

Just when I thought I was ahead of the game.

Mom just called, dad's in the ER - they're probably keeping him overnight, at least.

Don't feel like talking much, plus I'm starting to cry again and can hardly see the screen, so I'll just leave it at that for now.

The trauma of the doctor...blech! GRAPHIC POST

2008-02-09T09:24:00.000-05:00

Alrighty folks...Tuesday I had the "pleasure" of having a bascal cell carcinoma removed from my back. I have been traumatized ever since, and hardly able to talk about it! I still may pass out and end up a pile of goo next to my computer, as I type.

Skin cancer is NOT pretty. Even when you have the "best" kind, like me. Ugh. I had no idea what I was truly in for, until I was in really deep. I knew I would be numbed. I did NOT know I would be pricked FOUR TIMES with needles. I HATE needles. I yelped. It effin' hurt. After I was pricked, I had to lie there for a bit, so I would "numb up" real good. That was hell. I felt like I had laid there for days. I bet it was 5 minutes. So the doc comes in, checks me out, we're ready. Let's get this shit done. The actual cancer was removed in a heartbeat. I could'nt believe it. I was relieved. But it went downhill from there. I had an unruly blood vessel that wouldn't stop bleeding. They had to cauterize it. The sound of that and just thinking about what was going on, caused me to nearly pass out. Thank god I was already face down on a table. I kept taking really deep breaths to try and calm myself down. I was shaking like a leaf. After that was handled, time to stitch me up. WAAAH. I had multiple layers of stitches. Some underneath the skin, and about 4 on the outside (I havent looked yet, I'm not ready). It felt like it took forever to close me up. I really thought I was going to black out and/or vomit. At some point near the beginning of the procedure, I had to tell the doctor to STOP telling me what he was doing back there, because it was making me feel even worse.

When they were done, I had to lay there for a few moments and get myself together. The nurse asked if I was OK because I was breathing so deeply. I told her I was trying to make sure she didn't have to pick me up from the floor, ha!

I'm not allowed to lift anything or do any movements that could cause the stitches to tear, for THREE WEEKS! Doc says its like a "zipper" - move the wrong way and bam, it will open right up. GAG. It's in a weird, unreachable spot on my back...lovely. I have to clean it and change the bandage 2x a day for 2 weeks. Thankfully there is a nurse at work, so that takes care of Monday -Friday. I had to call on my mom for "mom duties" a few nights this week, had to have her come by after work and clean me up. Gross!

On a worse note, there is another spot on my shoulder - I showed the doctor - he said he was 90% sure that would have to be cut out too - I get a biopsy for that in 2 weeks, when I go back to get these stitches taken out. So knowing that I am going to have to do this again is tripping me out. Hopefully this time won't be as bad, because this spot just appeared over the course of the past few months, while the one on my back had been there for a good 5+ years.

This is no fun at all. I just want to be cancer free already! I'm also bummed, I love the sun - the ocean, the pool, the beach, working in the yard, planting flowers. Summer is my time. Guess I'll just have to be slathered up in SPF 10,000 when I go out from now on, sniff sniff... this pasty white girl is gonna be pasty white forever and ever!

Well, that's enough for now..got a busy day on tap..oil change, post office, sis's baby shower disguised as a BBQ (I got her this rockin' IKEA high chair), NASCAR this evening..Hope everyone has a stellar, worry free weekend!

TOMORROW'S THE DAY, and EXTENDED FREE SHIPPING

2008-02-04T20:39:00.000-05:00

Hello.

I'm extending my free/discounted shipping offer through February. So take advantage and save a few buckaroos!

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Tomorrow I'm having my cancer cut out. I'm starting to feel a bit sick at my stomach. Its going to be the longest 30 minutes of my life to date, I'm sure :( Blech.

BIRTHDAY SOON!

2008-01-26T09:23:00.000-05:00

Yes, I am an Aquarius!

Read everything you want to know about Aquarians here (quite the interesting tidbit!)

http://www.astrology-online.com/aquarius.htm

The official "big day" is Tuesday, 1/29. Plans? Not really, not for that day in particular...I hate birthdays in the middle of the work week. They blow!

Today I am having lunch with some friends and family at Mongolian BBQ, MMMM.

Hopefully next weekend I'll get to celebrate by throwing a few back at my favorite bar, while the tunes of a killer AC/DC coverband wane in the background.

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As a "kinda sorta" web celebration, I'm going to offer FREE FIRST CLASS (to the UNITED STATES) SHIPPING on EVERYTHING at my website...INTERNATIONAL AT HALF PRICE - FOR ONE WEEK (expiring at midnight 2/1).

You order will still calculate shipping, but your CARD WILL BE CHARGED ACCORDINGLY, as I have complete control over the $ amount that processes (even though I do not see your information - aaah..technology is great when it works!)

I have also made a few changes to items in the store, and will be adding a lot more panties this weekend (in case you don't see something you like today) :)

IF YOU READ THIS BLOG, BOOKMARK IT!

2008-01-19T10:00:00.000-05:00

Hello all:

I am the official poster child for "when it rains it pours."

If my site is down for any amount of time in the upcoming days, read this blog for an update.

Dreamhost (my host) billed their customers over $7.5 MILLION dollars in error on 1/15. They billed me for over 2 YEARS in advance. Almost $300 hit my checking account. Guess what, I dont have $300. It is a nightmare of global proportions for tons of people. Here is the post at their site:

http://blog.dreamhost.com/

I am on my way to the bank to file a dispute, which may then in turn make it look like I owe money (because of the glitch) - which might in turn, take my site down until its resolved. AT this point I need the $ over the site being up and running, so that's the risk I have chosen to take. I apologize in advance if there is an outage, as I planned on doing an update this weekend.

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Yesterday, I was in a panic. It appeared I had lost both of my badges for work. How did I do that! I tore the house apart, the car..nothing. I had to have lost it in the parking lot.

Getting into work took me almost 2 hours. The relief was that I had a voice mail that someone had turned them in the night before (I LOVE YOU WHOMEVER YOU ARE!). Then it took me another 45 minutes to actually locate the badge so I could retrieve it. What a way to end an already shitty week at work.

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All week I've had horrible nightmares - one night I woke up covered in sweat. I continue to dream about serial killers (one was very much a Texas Chainsaw Massacre type dream) coming after me. I always remember my dreams vividly - like they are real life. That's not always a good thing. My mom made a good point, that perhaps they are stemming from my fear of my newly found skin cancer. I think she's right. This month is dragging - I wish I could have it removed NOW. I still have to wait 2 weeks :(

I have no energy at all this week. I get home from work and sleep for 2 hours, then go back to bed 2 hours after that and sleep all night. And then I dont want to get out of bed. The work days seem like 12 hours instead of 8. At least I have a 3 day weekend to be a slug. Its also going to be beyond cold this weekend, so I really really really dont want to go anywhere!

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Well that's it for now, I got to go to the bank before they close.

XOXO

I have the worst luck!!!! CAR ACCIDENT

2008-01-06T21:16:00.000-05:00

OK, I would like to start over 2008 please. Pretty please!

I was shopping for some staples today and I get a call from my mom's cell. Only it wasnt my mom on the other end, it was a paramedic. Mom was in an accident, and totalled her car. W AAAAAAAAAAAAAH! She was in the squad, and would be at the hospital in about 10 minutes. I drop everything and head to the ER. I beat her there.

Waiting is nervewracking. After about 30 minutes, they take me back. She's stable, but strapped to a board, her neck in a brace. No cuts or external bleeding, but her neck and spine were hurting. I was crying of course...I'm very close to my mom. She started crying, she was so shaken. I think my mom has cried only once or twice in her life.

I call my sister about 30 miles away, she gets in the car to come down. She arrives, and sent her hubby to be with my dad, who is basically a shut-in. He was hysterical, and couldn't even breathe. WAAAAAAAAAAAAAH.

Mom finally calmed down, and they take Xrays and do a CT scan of her spine. It all came back OK. She couldnt wait to get off that darned board. I don't blame her! After about 3 hours of being there, they released her because everything was coming back fine, and there was no blood in her urine (a sign of internal b leeding).

What a scare.

So what happened? Some dumb cunt ran a stop sign and nearly T-boned my mom. I wanna strangle the bitch. She lives around there, so I know she was aware of the stop sign. She was probably talking on a fucking cell phone. When she hit mom, mom went flying off into the cornfield. The airbags deployed. Mom has a guardian angel, that's for sure..because as soon as it happened someone stopped - and that someone happened to be a former paramedic. She kept my mom still and calm til the squad got there. Mom asked how her car was, and everybody told her it was totalled. The front driver side wheel was back behind the driver side door. We can't wait to see the the car.

Well, I am exhausted. I need to go to bed. I'm so happy my mom is OK. Sniff.

TF, HAPPY NEW YEARS TO ME - I get CANCER!

2008-01-05T10:10:00.000-05:00

Yes, you read that right. I have cancer.

That horrible "C" word.

Happy fucking 2008 girlfriend.

A few weeks ago, I went to see a dermatologist because I thought I had excema or dermatitis. While I was there, I had him check a spot on my back that had been there for a few years. He did a biopsy. He said if everything was OK I'd get a card in the mail after the 1st of the year. I didn't get a card, I got a phone call. I knew it was gonna be bad. The nurse told me over the phone (which I thought was kind of strange), that the biopsy came back as positive for BASAL CELL Carcinoma - skin cancer. I was speechless. She said that if you have to have a cancer, this is the best kind..Is there a best kind? Not in my mind, not at that moment, there wasn't. I started crying, but tried to hold it together while I was talking to her. She said she'd send some information in the mail to me, and we made an appt for February for the consult. She said they would cut it out. ICK.

I hung up, and started bawling at my desk. Thankfully my wonderful friends work right next to me, and were there to make me feel a little bit better. (Darn it, I'm gonna cry again!).

Cancer. Cancer. I have cancer. WTF.

That was found on a whim. What if I have it elsewhere? I am going to call the doctor back and tell them that at my next appt, I want checked from head to toe.

What was determined to be cancer wasn't even a mole, so don't think you can't get a cancer diagnosis from something else on your skin. Google "basal cell carcinoma" and look at the pictures. Yeah, they're not appetizing - but you should know what it looks like. Mine was just a little dry patch of skin - that itched from time to time. It's about the size of a dime. Unassuming - just bright pink, and pretty round in shape.

Its not always easy to get an appt with a dermatologist. The odd thing is, I tried a little over a year ago..and was told there was a 6 month wait. I called doctors in my county, and a neighboring one. I let it go. Then when mom and I went on vacation in July, she noticed the spot and said "I wish you'd get that checked out" - I let it go again, until December. I opted to try for a doc in "the big city" - he got me in within 2 weeks. It may have saved my life. Guess that remains to be seen.

I have more I could talk ab out, but that will wait til I feel like posting again.

Sorry for the new year downer!

Oh the holiday stress!

2007-12-29T11:57:00.000-05:00

Is it over yet? Almost!

Christmas was good - mom always goes overboard. We keep telling her to stop it, every year, but she ignores us. Perhaps next year will be different - there will be a new bean in the family, and mom and dad will be grandparents - a recipe for total spoilage! Speaking of beans, I did a watercolor for my sister and her hubby for the nursery - pictures attached! (PS - she is the cutest preggo chic ever, but she thinks she's fat!)

I've been fighting migraines nearly every day for over a week. I am hoping it is just holiday anxiety and ex-boy anxiety, combined with a shitty mattress (why are mattresses so expensive?). I'm really over taking 15 aspirin a day trying to kill this thing, but I'll pop as many pills as I have to to try and stop it.

I am sad today, I miss the ex-asshole. Every time I miss him, I think about how mean he was to me and I feel a little bit better, but it still makes me melancholy.

I am contemplating a major life change...selling my house within the next year and moving to the big city, where I work, 30 miles away. The only negative is that ILOVE THIS HOUSE. If I could take it with me, I'd move tomorrow. I hate my neighbors beyond words, none of my friends live in this town anymore, and I need a change in my social life (I in effect, don't have one). It scares me to death ultimately, I'm very much a small town girl - and moving to the capital city is frightening. Will I be safe living alone? What will I do with myself with so many options? I never thought I"d leave here...ever. $3 a gallon for gas is killing me, the commute is killing me (especially during the winter)..the list goes on and on. I have lots to think about.

Well, I have to go to the PO - and I'm starving, so I'm outta here for now!

HOpe everyone had a wonderful xmas and has a splended New Year!

Doctor Visit

2007-12-19T20:00:00.000-05:00

I went to a new doctor today. I really liked him and his staff. They were very friendly and made me feel at ease. I really really needed that, because I got lost trying to find them. Left in time to be there 15 minutes early, and was 10 min. late..ARGH. I hate big cities - they're so intimidating to me.

The not so great news is, they did a biopsy - I wasn't expecting it. I should know something after the 1st of the year. After the doctor left, the nurse said "I wouldnt worry too much, I can tell he wasn't concerned and he's almost always right." So, I guess I'll try not to think about it. At least I have the distraction of being really busy right now, both at work and with holiday stuff.

I guess we'll see soon enough.

Hope all is well with all of my darlings out there!

ALTERNATE EBANNED ID ask me

2007-12-15T10:32:00.000-05:00

Howdy sweet boys and girls!

Many of you know I stopped selling panties under my Glittergirl ID, due to slagging sales and multiple relists without bids. I DO HAVE OTHER ITEMS FOR SALE as Glittergirl! I can't totally abandon and ID that has been so good to me for over 5 years. I'm hoping things have only come to a screeching halt because of holiday gift giving - which is fine, because FAMILY COMES FIRST :)

As for panties, I prefer they be purchased through my website (I've gotta see more action there or shut it down). HOWEVER, because I love watching auctions unfold so darned much, I do have a new Ebanned ID. I will not divulge it here. If you have won or have bid on GLITTERGIRL auctions, email me and I will tell you - in case you'd like to bid. Reason? I thought maybe I'd attact some new customers and generate new interest. So far, my first auction resulted in non paying bidder. Lovely, eh? !!!!! So that's that on the business side of things.

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Guess what! I got an A in my class! I'm so stoked. It was so hard. I truly admire those that do taxes either as a full time job or on the side. Flipping complicated as all hell, and with laws that change regularly? I thought my brain was going to explode.

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WINTER STORM WARNING IN EFFECT. Oh shit. Yes, it isnt doing anything outside yet - but it's coming. The best part? I dont care BECAUSE ITS THE WEEKEND, I DONT HAVE TO GO ANYWHERE!!! YAY!! IT CAN SNOW 2 FUCKING FEET TODAY IF IT WANTS TO! I do have to get my brows waxed to get rid of the forest growing out of my forehead, but that's in a few hours so I should be good.

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Its been a good month at work..I got another award that resulted in 8 hours paid time off..that's the 2nd one in in 2 months. Those suckers are hard to come by! I am giddy. I cant divulge all of the information, but I can say it was for providing excellent customer service to 2 locations in the US. Otherwise it would have taken 2 months to earn that time. SWEET!!!!

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I have all my xmas shopping done, I just have to do a project for my sister's present. I am so happy! Can't wait til its all over, and loooking forward to a 4 day weekend over the holiday. YAY!

Well, I best go..might stop at the library and find a movie to check out since I'll be SNOWED IN, UNDER, OVER, WHATEVER this weekend.

TOODLES!

YAHOO MESSENGER CHAT - WEDNESDAY 730 PM EST

2007-12-08T15:00:00.000-05:00

Hello all!

I will be having a YAHOO MESSENGER CHAT SESSION THIS COMING WEDNESDAY NIGHT AT 730 PM, EST.

Session will last from 30 minutes to one hour.

Hey all, don't forget - I AM STILL SELLING AT EBANNED, and I have auctions running. I will list several more this weekend - HAPPY HOLIDAYS!