UNTIL YOU'VE WALKED IN MY SHOES, Jackass

To the jackass or bitch ass cunt that felt it so necessary to attempt to leave such fucked up remarks on my blog (which of course I did not publish) If I (and my life) bother you so damned much the solution is simple..QUIT READING MY BLOG!

It is quite easy for you to move on to a blog that suits your fancy.

BTW, Did your father pass away this year, or some other family member or friend that was dearly close to you.? Do you have cancer and worry that the "next time" will be the one that gets you? Did your best friend with a family of 6 lose everything in a fire?

I am NOT chipper because this is the 1st christmas without my dad. I watch my mom try and cope every day. YOU don't get her emails about the memories, and how she feels, and what she misses...YOU didnt know that instead of the angel that's been on the top of the tree since before I was born, she replaced it with dad's "BAH HUMBUG" santa hat - reason? "It will be like he's looking over us". YOU don't know that every christmas, dad would give her a naughty christmas card, unsigned..and this year, he got the same thing..hand delivered by my sister - it was his dying wish that my sister do this for him -and that we all cried for 30 minutes after she opened it.

YOU don't know what its like to be injected with several needles, have a biopsy taken, and have to wait 2 weeks to find out if you go back for more extensive procedures..then after all the unpleasantries are said and done, you hurt for days, have sutures that dont dissolve on their own...etc..and have to wait again, for more lab work confirming that "they got it all". Try doing that no less than 5x in a year and knowing that is what the rest of your life will entail.

Maybe you should walk in my shoes before you judge.

I'm certainly not losing any sleep, its obvious who's truly pathetic.

Global Warming and 500 degrees, WTF!

WTF! .... the best way to start this post.

Why? Umm..today it was almost 70 degrees. Yes, it is 12/27. It is Ohio. This is not normal. I went for a bikeride, in a t-shirt and shorts, and was not chilled in the slightest, even with a strong breeze blowing. Thus the WTF!

500 degrees..that is the temperature of a CHI curling iron, according to my stylist. Earlier in the week when I was 1/2 asleep straightening my bangs before work, I accidentally decided to put the iron on my forehead...MUTHER TRUCKER! YOWZA! You should see the mark! Definitely 2nd degree burn..complete with a former blister, now scab - an inch long, right at my hairline..when I got my hair done yesterday I had to warn her to be careful! Even she flinched when she saw it. At least its UNDER my hair, and I didnt decide to clip my ear into the iron like she did once, LOL. WAAAH! Burns suck!!!

Merry Christmas, Happy Holidays...etc. :)

I'm sitting here at mom's having some Dunkin Donuts coffee. Just mom, myself and Beaner are awake (parents still snoozing due to a late night crying fit, LOL). Thought I would pop in here and wish everyone an awesome day, full of wishes fulfilled, time spent with family (hopefully not crazy family, like some of mine), naps, and 24 hours of "A Christmas Story" on TNT (or TBS network).

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To celebrate the holiday season, any order placed through my website will receive FREE SHIPPING, WORLDWIDE - NO RESTRICTIONS through January 2.

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So after you're done with all of the holiday hub-bub, come back and get yourself something!

Much love to all of my friends XOXO

BAH HUMBUG...

Yes, I am a scrooge! Sorry to those of you that love all this holiday bullshit, LOL.

I had (2) more skin biopsies this week - one of them, ON MY ASS! How embarrassing is that..let that be a word of warning to NOT TAN NAKED. Hell, DON'T TAN PERIOD! I won't lecture you, you know the tanning bed can be a death sentence.

I am heading out soon to finish my xmas shopping. How did this happen? I was SO on top of things, and before I knew it, it was ..umm..today...5 days before the big day, and I dont have the rest of my gifts for my gf's at work. At least I pretty much know what I need, just have to go and get it, along with all of the other crazies that found themselves in the same boat as me.

My depression is in overdrive right now..I slept 12 hours last night, 12 the night before....and I'm still tired. I'm sad because dad is gone, and because mom is really sad...I honestly would like to fast forward to Jan. 2, or at least New Years...I'll at least be drunk (and I'm a happy drunk, LOL). I'm sad cause I feel fat...how did I my weight get so out of control? God. If it were only as easy to lose as it is to gain. Speaking of weight, man I'm starving, ha!

Yesterday I spent the day with mom, and sis and baby...making cookies. That little stinker nephew of mine just makes me so happy. He is now taking a few steps at a time without holding onto anything..he's only 8 months old! He also started doing this thing..putting one of his hands up in the air..like he's waiting for a "high 5" - so we just give him a high 5 whenever he does it, LOL.

A HUGE THANK YOU to "C", I can't believe your package arrived already..I am so excited!!!! I was happy with the wine, and so not expecting the VS Gift Card! I really needed a nice surprise :) My sister is excited to share the wine with me. I may be hitting you up for more - you may turn me into a WINO! (instead of a Capt Morgan's-O), LOL.

Well, that's all for now..must have coffee..and shop!

WINTER HATH ARRIVED...and so has the gas bill...UGH

Holy crap. (2) weekends ago it was in the 50's, warm enough for me to climb a ladder and hang christmas lights.

Then one of those damned ALBERTA CLIPPERS came through and OMG..it's been freezing! It snowed measurably for the 1st time this season yesterday...several inches. I think it was about 19 degrees with the wind blowing rather strongly. Of course, this was the day I had an appt to get my oil changed and a few other things looked at on the car. I asked them how long it would be before the car was ready, they said almost 2 hours. No way am I sitting there that long..so I WALKED HOME, over a MILE..in the crappy weather. I was sooooo cold when I got home..then I thought, well shit - I have to go back! I decided to use our tiny little public transit system - it was so worth the $5 to get back...aah!

I got my gas bill the other day, and nearly choked. I've really made efforts to "reduce, reuse, recycle" - I'm trying to be a "green girl" and make a positive impact on the earth. I've managed to see a HUGE decrease in my electric bill, which makes me giddy..but the gas bill? I feel sick. My house is old, my furnace needs replaced. I will never have enough $ for a furnace, so I have to find other ways to try and control the air flow in and out of this house. I did get 6 new windows over the summer, I am sure that is helping..but obviously it is not enough. So I drove to Menards in the snow yesterday..and bought window plastic, and weather stripping, and foam outlet covers. Yes, foam outlet covers. They had a blurb on the news the other night about how much air comes in through your electric outlets on non-interior walls, and I was shocked. So last night I started with the plastic and outlet covers, that's today's project, to finish that, and change the furnace filter.

As for the electric bill - what have I done? All of my lightbulbs are compact fluorescents, inside AND out. They really do last forever too! Its crazy. I only have the lights on that are necessary as well (except the xmas lights). And this, I think this is the big one...I am aware of VAMPIRE ELECTRICITY. Vampire electricity is the electricity that is used by leaving appliances, lights, etc plugged in when they are not in use. I saw on TV somewhere that appliances, etc use MORE electricity when they are NOT in use! That seems fishy, but it was definitely an eye opener, regardless. Now you can't unplug your refrigerator, LOL..but you can unplug the microwave, coffee maker, vac sealer (he he), when you are not using them. You CAN unplug the TV in the spare room and everything attached to it when its not being used. I have watched my electric bill go from $130 to $100 to $70 to $40....there's the evidence.

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OMG, where have my bidders gone? I haven't sold ANYTHING in the past week. Double UGH! I'm still here, still masturbating, still horny, LOL :)

Mom is sad....

I knew the holidays would be hard with dad gone..especially for mom.

She sent me this email last night:

This afternoon was a weepy afternoon for me, getting out my snowmen and decorating. I ran across the Bah Humbug Santa hat....then I started thinking that my house is full of decorations, but I have a hole in my heart, an empty spot that no amount of decorations and Christmas spirit can fill...I can't listen to any Christmas music (and you know how much I always loved that) and I don't know how I will make it through New Year's Eve....I remember saying on the last one that this year would have to be better than last year, and it started out with my wreck on the 6th of Jan, and 6 mos. later, he's gone. I thought about calling you, but didn't want to be a downer, and now I am being one anyway. I don't know what I'd do without you kids and the Baby the sunshine in my life! I love you guys!

This sucks.

I want to fast forward to mid-January so mom doesnt hurt as much.

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