BIRTHDAY SOON!

Yes, I am an Aquarius!

Read everything you want to know about Aquarians here (quite the interesting tidbit!)

http://www.astrology-online.com/aquarius.htm

The official "big day" is Tuesday, 1/29. Plans? Not really, not for that day in particular...I hate birthdays in the middle of the work week. They blow!

Today I am having lunch with some friends and family at Mongolian BBQ, MMMM.

Hopefully next weekend I'll get to celebrate by throwing a few back at my favorite bar, while the tunes of a killer AC/DC coverband wane in the background.

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As a "kinda sorta" web celebration, I'm going to offer FREE FIRST CLASS (to the UNITED STATES) SHIPPING on EVERYTHING at my website...INTERNATIONAL AT HALF PRICE - FOR ONE WEEK (expiring at midnight 2/1).

You order will still calculate shipping, but your CARD WILL BE CHARGED ACCORDINGLY, as I have complete control over the $ amount that processes (even though I do not see your information - aaah..technology is great when it works!)

I have also made a few changes to items in the store, and will be adding a lot more panties this weekend (in case you don't see something you like today) :)

IF YOU READ THIS BLOG, BOOKMARK IT!

Hello all:

I am the official poster child for "when it rains it pours."

If my site is down for any amount of time in the upcoming days, read this blog for an update.

Dreamhost (my host) billed their customers over $7.5 MILLION dollars in error on 1/15. They billed me for over 2 YEARS in advance. Almost $300 hit my checking account. Guess what, I dont have $300. It is a nightmare of global proportions for tons of people. Here is the post at their site:

http://blog.dreamhost.com/

I am on my way to the bank to file a dispute, which may then in turn make it look like I owe money (because of the glitch) - which might in turn, take my site down until its resolved. AT this point I need the $ over the site being up and running, so that's the risk I have chosen to take. I apologize in advance if there is an outage, as I planned on doing an update this weekend.

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Yesterday, I was in a panic. It appeared I had lost both of my badges for work. How did I do that! I tore the house apart, the car..nothing. I had to have lost it in the parking lot.

Getting into work took me almost 2 hours. The relief was that I had a voice mail that someone had turned them in the night before (I LOVE YOU WHOMEVER YOU ARE!). Then it took me another 45 minutes to actually locate the badge so I could retrieve it. What a way to end an already shitty week at work.

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All week I've had horrible nightmares - one night I woke up covered in sweat. I continue to dream about serial killers (one was very much a Texas Chainsaw Massacre type dream) coming after me. I always remember my dreams vividly - like they are real life. That's not always a good thing. My mom made a good point, that perhaps they are stemming from my fear of my newly found skin cancer. I think she's right. This month is dragging - I wish I could have it removed NOW. I still have to wait 2 weeks :(

I have no energy at all this week. I get home from work and sleep for 2 hours, then go back to bed 2 hours after that and sleep all night. And then I dont want to get out of bed. The work days seem like 12 hours instead of 8. At least I have a 3 day weekend to be a slug. Its also going to be beyond cold this weekend, so I really really really dont want to go anywhere!

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Well that's it for now, I got to go to the bank before they close.

XOXO

I have the worst luck!!!! CAR ACCIDENT

OK, I would like to start over 2008 please. Pretty please!

I was shopping for some staples today and I get a call from my mom's cell. Only it wasnt my mom on the other end, it was a paramedic. Mom was in an accident, and totalled her car. W AAAAAAAAAAAAAH! She was in the squad, and would be at the hospital in about 10 minutes. I drop everything and head to the ER. I beat her there.

Waiting is nervewracking. After about 30 minutes, they take me back. She's stable, but strapped to a board, her neck in a brace. No cuts or external bleeding, but her neck and spine were hurting. I was crying of course...I'm very close to my mom. She started crying, she was so shaken. I think my mom has cried only once or twice in her life.

I call my sister about 30 miles away, she gets in the car to come down. She arrives, and sent her hubby to be with my dad, who is basically a shut-in. He was hysterical, and couldn't even breathe. WAAAAAAAAAAAAAH.

Mom finally calmed down, and they take Xrays and do a CT scan of her spine. It all came back OK. She couldnt wait to get off that darned board. I don't blame her! After about 3 hours of being there, they released her because everything was coming back fine, and there was no blood in her urine (a sign of internal b leeding).

What a scare.

So what happened? Some dumb cunt ran a stop sign and nearly T-boned my mom. I wanna strangle the bitch. She lives around there, so I know she was aware of the stop sign. She was probably talking on a fucking cell phone. When she hit mom, mom went flying off into the cornfield. The airbags deployed. Mom has a guardian angel, that's for sure..because as soon as it happened someone stopped - and that someone happened to be a former paramedic. She kept my mom still and calm til the squad got there. Mom asked how her car was, and everybody told her it was totalled. The front driver side wheel was back behind the driver side door. We can't wait to see the the car.

Well, I am exhausted. I need to go to bed. I'm so happy my mom is OK. Sniff.

TF, HAPPY NEW YEARS TO ME - I get CANCER!

Yes, you read that right. I have cancer.

That horrible "C" word.

Happy fucking 2008 girlfriend.

A few weeks ago, I went to see a dermatologist because I thought I had excema or dermatitis. While I was there, I had him check a spot on my back that had been there for a few years. He did a biopsy. He said if everything was OK I'd get a card in the mail after the 1st of the year. I didn't get a card, I got a phone call. I knew it was gonna be bad. The nurse told me over the phone (which I thought was kind of strange), that the biopsy came back as positive for BASAL CELL Carcinoma - skin cancer. I was speechless. She said that if you have to have a cancer, this is the best kind..Is there a best kind? Not in my mind, not at that moment, there wasn't. I started crying, but tried to hold it together while I was talking to her. She said she'd send some information in the mail to me, and we made an appt for February for the consult. She said they would cut it out. ICK.

I hung up, and started bawling at my desk. Thankfully my wonderful friends work right next to me, and were there to make me feel a little bit better. (Darn it, I'm gonna cry again!).

Cancer. Cancer. I have cancer. WTF.

That was found on a whim. What if I have it elsewhere? I am going to call the doctor back and tell them that at my next appt, I want checked from head to toe.

What was determined to be cancer wasn't even a mole, so don't think you can't get a cancer diagnosis from something else on your skin. Google "basal cell carcinoma" and look at the pictures. Yeah, they're not appetizing - but you should know what it looks like. Mine was just a little dry patch of skin - that itched from time to time. It's about the size of a dime. Unassuming - just bright pink, and pretty round in shape.

Its not always easy to get an appt with a dermatologist. The odd thing is, I tried a little over a year ago..and was told there was a 6 month wait. I called doctors in my county, and a neighboring one. I let it go. Then when mom and I went on vacation in July, she noticed the spot and said "I wish you'd get that checked out" - I let it go again, until December. I opted to try for a doc in "the big city" - he got me in within 2 weeks. It may have saved my life. Guess that remains to be seen.

I have more I could talk ab out, but that will wait til I feel like posting again.

Sorry for the new year downer!