Mom is sad....

I knew the holidays would be hard with dad gone..especially for mom.

She sent me this email last night:

This afternoon was a weepy afternoon for me, getting out my snowmen and decorating. I ran across the Bah Humbug Santa hat....then I started thinking that my house is full of decorations, but I have a hole in my heart, an empty spot that no amount of decorations and Christmas spirit can fill...I can't listen to any Christmas music (and you know how much I always loved that) and I don't know how I will make it through New Year's Eve....I remember saying on the last one that this year would have to be better than last year, and it started out with my wreck on the 6th of Jan, and 6 mos. later, he's gone. I thought about calling you, but didn't want to be a downer, and now I am being one anyway. I don't know what I'd do without you kids and the Baby the sunshine in my life! I love you guys!

This sucks.

I want to fast forward to mid-January so mom doesnt hurt as much.

:(