AAAH...BASTARDS!

Alright..anyone that creates a computer virus, trojan etc needs to be at the bottom of the ocean, with the damned lawyers (well most of them - cause I know one really cool lawyer). Seriously, what kind of person gets off on fucking with other people like this. Stupid ass mother fuckers need to get a real job and a real life - or are you so lame that such a thing isnt possible, so this is how you spend your free time?

Yeah, can you tell I've had some PC problems? Virtumonde is a NASTY, NASTY bug. You cannot get rid of it. I dont care what help you think is out there, NOTHING worked. Even a special scan to find ONLY that virus turned up nothing, yet the damned thing was working some serious magic on me. Yes, I have virus protection..and spyware protection..they all caught it, but could not stop it from replicating (apparently its something that, if you dont delete all of it, it replaces what you did manage to erase)...@#$@#$!!!!! WTF, seriously.

By Sat. night, I couldnt even keep my PC on to try anything else. Bitch kept shutting down. Fuck it. And try finding a PC repair company open on Sundays...christ, this is 2008. Not everyone goes to church...I looked in my 2005 phonebook (who uses a real phonebook anymore - not me, but obviously I should get an udpated one). Find a place open on Sunday. Unhook everything, drive out there...empty storefront..WTF! The phone number worked earlier, and gave me the hours of busineess. I called again. Local number. I'm routed to some place over 100 miles away (oh yeah, we closed that location)...well THANKS JACKASSES! Maybe you should have put that on your recording !!!! OMG..I was beside myself. Go back home, decide to take the leap into a system restore. I've never done one. I have no option. I have orders to fill, auctions to put up so I have cash for christmas gifts...so into the unknown I go.

Of course, I have so many darned things going on with different passwords I had a great time trying to figure it all out. Couldn't remember how to configure my Outlook (I have 3 email addresses coming into one box)....I just wanted to pull my hair out!

To make it worse, a week ago I started having pain in my neck and shoulder again..thought I slept wrong..dont know what's going on now, cause it still hurts. Been taking aspirin like candy, using the heating pad, muscle relaxers...even had one of my BFF's give me a massage (which actually HURT) :( I Dont know, maybe I've pinched something - whatever it is, I just want it to go away. And I'm sniffling again..I just had a bug a few weeks ago. Everyone at work is sneezing and hacking so one of those degenerates probably gave it to me. Its like working in a damned airplane 40 hours a week!

Anyhoo...PC is back on line..not sure if I've cured the problem. I've decided to use open-source software whenever possible, including OPENOFFICE3 (awesome alternative to the MS Office suite), and Filezilla (an FTP program). Will probably download GIMP, which I read is a lot like Photoshop.

ON top of the PC problems, the past 2 weeks have been emotionally trying. Dad died on July 20th. Last weekend was a mass for him at church...yesterday was a Hospice service for everyone that passed within the year. Talk about having an unhealed would ripped back open. I can't even hear my dad's name without crying..and when they put a picture of him up on the screen, I gushed. My mom, sis and I were a fountain of salty tears. When will the pain ease? I'm scared because the Holidays are coming - I dont know how we will get through them :(

Well, guess that's it for now...I'm off tomorrow (go Veterans, and THANK YOU!), maybe I'll finally get to start cleaning out my denim tha'ts been accumulating in the top of my closet for 7 years...I have no idea what's hiding up there..EEK! (but I bet most of it I can't fit my fat ass into anymore, LOL).