Oh the holiday stress!

Is it over yet? Almost!

Christmas was good - mom always goes overboard. We keep telling her to stop it, every year, but she ignores us. Perhaps next year will be different - there will be a new bean in the family, and mom and dad will be grandparents - a recipe for total spoilage! Speaking of beans, I did a watercolor for my sister and her hubby for the nursery - pictures attached! (PS - she is the cutest preggo chic ever, but she thinks she's fat!)

I've been fighting migraines nearly every day for over a week. I am hoping it is just holiday anxiety and ex-boy anxiety, combined with a shitty mattress (why are mattresses so expensive?). I'm really over taking 15 aspirin a day trying to kill this thing, but I'll pop as many pills as I have to to try and stop it.

I am sad today, I miss the ex-asshole. Every time I miss him, I think about how mean he was to me and I feel a little bit better, but it still makes me melancholy.

I am contemplating a major life change...selling my house within the next year and moving to the big city, where I work, 30 miles away. The only negative is that ILOVE THIS HOUSE. If I could take it with me, I'd move tomorrow. I hate my neighbors beyond words, none of my friends live in this town anymore, and I need a change in my social life (I in effect, don't have one). It scares me to death ultimately, I'm very much a small town girl - and moving to the capital city is frightening. Will I be safe living alone? What will I do with myself with so many options? I never thought I"d leave here...ever. $3 a gallon for gas is killing me, the commute is killing me (especially during the winter)..the list goes on and on. I have lots to think about.

Well, I have to go to the PO - and I'm starving, so I'm outta here for now!

HOpe everyone had a wonderful xmas and has a splended New Year!