Yeah, I think I'm seriously illl

For the love of Pete.

So my ultrasound a week ago was negative. Thought I was doing better. Then yesterday and today, I've had some horrible, shooting pains in my abdomen. Like the kind that stop you in your tracks. They come out of nowhere, without warning. And they've spread from where they originally started 3 weeks ago. I'll be going about my business, and then like a bolt of lightning, @#$#$!@#!!!. Mother fucker!

I'm starting to get scared. What if I have cancer? A disabling disease? I'll tell you right now, I'm such a pussy when it comes to being sick. I wouldnt do well if I was sick for the rest of my life, or long term. My family would probably kill me before I died on my own.

I did make a Dr's appt for next week. I'm marching in there and telling them to find out what's wrong - because something definitely is. Give me an MRI, X-rays, I dont care. Find it. Fix it. I just want to be well!

Busy busy busy, not feeling well, not feeling well!

Howdy all.

Its been a while. Sure wish I was better at writing here, hell I wish I was better at a lot of things!

Anyhoo, life has been nutso. Lets start with my health. For about 3 weeks, I've had this nagging, rather constant ache on my right side, abdomen. For the 1st week, I felt like I wanted to barf after I ate - every time, and I had some "poopy" issues too. It was so not good. So I finally got myself to the doctor a bit after the 2nd week - had an ultrasound, he was checking my gallbladder. Well, it came back fine. So here I am, still aching (but not constantly anymore), and wondering what in the hell is wrong with me. I guess I'll just wait and see - hopefully I wont end up in the hospital.

I'm so completely exhausted all of the time now, and I can't sleep!!! I think I got the insomnia from my dad. Thanks dad. I lay there and my mind keeps running and running, thinking about everything from work, to the naughty business, to doing the laundry . I sure wish you could flip a switch and turn off your brain.

Now for work. Its fiscal year end. Let me tell you, that makes it hell if you're working where I am. People love to wait til the last minute to try and balance their books and rectify mistakes, and of course, they think they're the only customer and that you should drop everything to fix their shit yesterday. Makes me a bit crazy. Along with that, the regular workload is still coming in. There arent enough hours in the day. Worked some OT, worked some weirdo split shift hours (like today). On call this weekend. I told them not to dare call me Sat night, because I will be drunk. I'm also an hour away from work - further than anyone else on the team. Gawd help them if they call me - it would mean driving 1 hour to get there, 5 minutes to make a computer entry, then an hour home. You see why I dont want them to call? Overall though, I really like the fast pace of everything. The days go quickly. Its just so tiring though. Your brain is the consistency of sweet potato pie by days end, and the couch becomes your best friend (fighting with the bath tub for top spot in the relaxation realm).

It stinks now because it gets dark so soon..by 730. So no time to ride my bike when I get home. I guess I'll get fat again - I'm so not motivated to go to the actual gym. Hell I have a weight bench downstairs, and I cant even get my ass in a place to use it!!! Sometimes I suck, LOL.

You know whats grosser than gross?

Coming back from a bikeride and finding bugs stuck to your forehead, and in between your boobies. How in the hell they ever squeezed themselves in there I'll never know!

ICK!

EEK...Hangover city, sweetheart

Yes, I did it again..overindulged. Hangover city baby. And I have to be hot again in 8 hours for the Def Leppard/Journey concert.

I'll tell you one thing, no drinking tonight! I knew I couldnt do it 2 nights in a row. Gettin' old is a bitch!

Feeling pretty darn crappy!

Ick. I feel like..umm...doggie doo doo today.

Thank you so much "P", for breathing right on me at work last week! That's so rude! I'm sniffly, and last night I was freezing to death! Then I woke up in the middle of the night soaked in sweat. Gross. I'm mega-dosing Vitamin C now, so I hope I can kick this thing over the next 2 days before its time to go to work. What a bust for a holiday weekend. Dissed by my sister (which I still havent heard from), rainy every single day, and now feeling crappy.

However, I must go on!!! Today's project (and the project I meant for the past 2 days), SERIOUS CLEANING/REORGANIZATION in the basement - the unfinished, unholy side where the washer/dryer/keepsakes reside. The UN-NASCAR side that you never see...I've got big plans for it, so we'll see how that goes! It might actually turn out looking pretty good if I an incorporate my vision (its never failed me before) :)

So, time for some coffee, vitamins, and a new project~!

Dissed....and PISSED!

I'm using the color red today because I am ticked off!

The more I think about it, the angrier I get. I realized that my sister has dissed me TWICE in the past week for another friend - this "friend" is a fucking crazy CUNT! I cant fucking stand her!!! I wont tell you why she's so crazy, because that would take forever, so just trust me. The girl ain't right, plus she really hurt my sister's feelings recently. At least I'm "good" crazy!

Sis has been at my house 2x in the past couple of weeks, and stayed a total of 10 minutes both times. May not seem like a big deal, but when you drive 40 min each way to get here and then do that, it is odd. One of those times I thought we would get to spend some quality time together on a Sat night. Nope, gotta go to the drive in with CC (crazy cunt). Fine.

Well last night, I thought we were going to a festival near here. I emailed sis and asked her what time, if we were meeting at my house, hers, if she invited mom - I knew she was going with CC, but didnt realize that meant an immediate omission of family. Her response completely ignored my inquiry - I was like "gee, guess I was never really invited" - which is weird - because everyone hangs with everyone, no one is ever omitted amongst us - until now. I kinda didnt wanna go because of the stupid bitch, but would have sucked it up for the greater good. So the "meeting time" comes and goes, and nothing! No phone call "where are you," nothing. Whatever! I've got to have an explanation. I'm hurt and pissed off at the same time.

Today a friend is coming into town, an awesome gal that relocated to NY after Katrina. All I know is there's a bday party tonight at CC's house - I bet I was never invited to that either. FINE!!!! JUST FUCKING FINE!!

I do owe her big for completely arranging the re-fi on my house, but come on! I did give her attitude because I was cat-sitting and her fucking mongrel pissed on my bed - I had to spend all night Wed washing comforters and sheets, and I had to buy a new mattress pad. But I wasnt pissy about it - and I wasnt mad at her, just the furry heathen that belongs to her.

Well, what can you do, right? I'm hurt, and when I talk to her I'll tell her. Seems like any time I do get upset, she doesnt understand why. Oh well.

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Change of subject, LOL:

If you arent on my mailing list (can join on my ME page at Ebanned or on the "contact me" page of coderedhead.net), you dont know this - that's why its here!

I'll be taking a break from auctions - about a month, if not more. I'm burnt out, and unhappy with auction ending prices. Because of the house re-fi, I wont have a payment for a bit, so I'm taking advantage of that. I'll also be painting my house (exterior), and that will be quite the project! So, if you need a panty "fix", you may most definitely still order through the store on my site. Thanks!