What am I gonna run over next?

Good lord! I did it again!

Coming back from mom and dad's yesterday, I KILLED A BUNNY. * cry *

The little sucker ran into the road - I slammed on the brakes, but it didnt matter. THUMP.

I looked in my rear view mirror, and didnt see anything - then I was afraid he was dangling off of my car. I was completely horrified. With nowhere to pull over (its a windy, country road), I went home - drove the entire way with my hand over my mouth in shock and sadness.

When I looked at the car, all I saw (and it was enough, believe me), was bunny fur on the bumper - a lot of it.

I'm so sorry Mr Bunny - I really did try not to hit you :(

Guess sis and I are even now - I cant give her shit about running over the owl anymore! (same road by the way - I do believe it's the road kill capital of the universe).

Crazy Times, and a Jackass

Wow. I have been the busiest beaver ever. So busy that I dont even remember what I've written in here previously about being busy! I've been putting in lots of OT at work, and its worn me out - totally and completely. I've always been the person that needs at least 9 hours of sleep a night, and I havent been getting it. Quality of life during the week does not exist. I'm too tired when I get home to do anything - hell its even hard to muster up the energy to water the flowers!! The good news is, we're doing such a good job that we didnt have to work OT today - the Chief has a soft spot for us and told us to "have fun"! YEY!I am totally going to the pool today and doing nothing but reading a magazine and catching some rays. I need it. Oh do I need it.

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Now for the jackass. Man, I cant stand this fucker at work. Didnt like him when I was a contractor, like him even less as a full time employee. My opinion of him is that he wants to do everything he can to avoid doing any actual work - that's exactly why I wanna fucking strangle him. He's one of those employees that's not done a damn thing in his entire career with the agency (probably 20 years at least), and intends to keep things that way. The best part is, very soon pay will be based on performance - and people like that will start sweating - hell maybe thats' what his problem is lately. I work my ass off, and I have the most ultimate dislike for those that dont. To make this a bit short, I was sent to him to obtain something for the office. Instead of him telling me if and how or even if he could get it for me, he wanted to argue about the organizational structure, and if he was supposed to help me or not. Read your fucking email before you show up in my cube spouting off - had you done that, you would have seen the message from my boss -sent 4 days ago, explaining the re-org. Loser. Jackass. Fuckstick. I lost my patience with him, and got huffy. I finally said "look, if you wanna talk about that stuff and argue over whether or not your my supply person, you need to march right into my supervisors office when she gets here because I'm done." I said "All I know is what I was told, and that I need toner (yes, we're fucking arguing over toner for printers....man my blood is boiling) - and I was directed to you. My boss' office is right there." God I 'm pissed off all over ag ain! So then he asks me how I got the toner that I did put in the machines - I refused to tell him - man that made him mad - Fuck off dude. Because you wouldnt help me, someone else stepped in and did - I'm not ratting him out!!! No way in hell. I dont forget people that help me, and I certainly dont forget those that cross my path either. I'm actually sorry that I was right in this case - your lazy ass is my toner person. Lucky me. At least you did look like a fuckwad to the higher ups. Maybe you'll take an early buyout for retirment. One can hope, right?

Here I am again....I must be nuts

.....Here I am again, with a vodka/Smirnoff Triple Black in hand. Why does that make me nuts? Because yesterday I had my head in the toilet for hours because of it!

I went out Thursday with the softball team, and pounded a few....I usually drink Captain & Cokes, but decided to go back to one of my old favorites. I didnt get home until midnight, was supposed to be at work by 7. Got up in time to go by 7, stuck my head in the toilet. My head hurt so bad I thought it was going to split in half. I went through McDonalds, and wanted to hurl again when I was in the drive thru line. That was enough for me. No way could I do my accounting job in such bad shape! So, I went home (I was about a mile from work, and drove 30 miles back to my house)....called off, took 2 more Alleve, and went to bed. Oh, there were a few more "episodes". I went in to work about 130.....Still feeling a bit rough, but monumentally improved! Got home from work, slept for 2 more hours...went back to bed 2 hours after that, went back into work today to work OT. I was just going to go to dinner with the family and then call it a night, but they insisted on taking one of our new friends to The Carpet - our favorite dive bar. They're at the movies right now, I didnt want to go. Can't pass up the opportunity to introduce another person to The Carpet. So its 1130, thought I'd be in bed for the might, but I'm having a drink to prepare myself for at least a few hours of dancing. I need it, I havent exercised because I've been too tired from working so much.

Tomorrow I plan on keeping the couch company..all day! I am not going anywhere - laundry is done, I dont need groceries.

As usual, I am continually tortured by my totally unavailable "crush." I wish I could really explain how badly I want to bang this guy!!!! JUST ONE NIGHT!!! HELL JUST ONE KISS! Oh who am I kidding..I wouldnt be able to stop there if he's as hot as I think he is. Of course, there's a nice guy from work that's super interested - but I SO.AM NOT! There isnt any spark at all!!!! I was trying to keep an open mind, but its just not working. My friend said "I cant explain it, he's so weird around you!" I also think he's a big puss.....I thought he might be a stud muffin since he works out so much, but no such luck. He's the weakest link on the softball team...and that's no exaggeration. He whines about his calf that's been healed for weeks now...Thank heavens he's 3 floors above me and we dont have to interface at work. My crush on the other hand, I always find an excuse to visit his cube ...Oh the fantasies...about doing dirty things at work..in the stairwell..under the desk..on the desk (like him pulling my panties off with his teeth)...on the chair...Someone put me out of my misery! The batteries just arent taking care of business anymore! WAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAH!

I'm a has-been in Pantyland

I wont go into it much, because I hate to be a complainer. But, WTF!!!! I can't hardly sell shit lately - stuff being relisted 2 or 3 times because there are no bids, and stuff with bids not meeting the reserve (I've been doing this way too long to give it away, and I put too much time into it to give it away!). My biggest a gripe? A HOOTERS auction WITH NO GOD DAMNED BIDS!!! I've seen 2 others go for over $750, and I can't even get someone to place an opening bid for $25? Perhaps I am delusional. I know I'm not 20 anymore, but I dont think I'm gross and old and wrinkly either. Maybe I am blind when I look in the mirror - and the bids are reflecting what my eyes aren't seeing.

If I didnt need the money so badly just to survive, I'd quit! I've been doing this for 5 years and I am that frustrated and upset :(

I think the only thing keeping me going are the few of you that bid regularly and that are so very sweet to me.

That's all I am going to say for now :(

I am horrible and evil!

Why? Because I just slaughtered a cute, little innocent froggie with the lawnmower.

I saw him when I was picking up twigs, and tried to nudge him out of the way but he just sat there. He was so big and juicy!

I kept looking for him when I started mowing, and I didnt see him. Next thing I know, the mower makes that dreaded noise it makes when you run over something (usually cat shit), and there it was, a pile of slimy goo :( I swear, I didn't see him! I dont know if he changed colors or something - I cant believe the loud noise didnt run him right into the neighbors water feature (where I think he lives..errr..I mean lived).

I'm so sorry Mr Froggy :(