Here I am again....I must be nuts

.....Here I am again, with a vodka/Smirnoff Triple Black in hand. Why does that make me nuts? Because yesterday I had my head in the toilet for hours because of it!

I went out Thursday with the softball team, and pounded a few....I usually drink Captain & Cokes, but decided to go back to one of my old favorites. I didnt get home until midnight, was supposed to be at work by 7. Got up in time to go by 7, stuck my head in the toilet. My head hurt so bad I thought it was going to split in half. I went through McDonalds, and wanted to hurl again when I was in the drive thru line. That was enough for me. No way could I do my accounting job in such bad shape! So, I went home (I was about a mile from work, and drove 30 miles back to my house)....called off, took 2 more Alleve, and went to bed. Oh, there were a few more "episodes". I went in to work about 130.....Still feeling a bit rough, but monumentally improved! Got home from work, slept for 2 more hours...went back to bed 2 hours after that, went back into work today to work OT. I was just going to go to dinner with the family and then call it a night, but they insisted on taking one of our new friends to The Carpet - our favorite dive bar. They're at the movies right now, I didnt want to go. Can't pass up the opportunity to introduce another person to The Carpet. So its 1130, thought I'd be in bed for the might, but I'm having a drink to prepare myself for at least a few hours of dancing. I need it, I havent exercised because I've been too tired from working so much.

Tomorrow I plan on keeping the couch company..all day! I am not going anywhere - laundry is done, I dont need groceries.

As usual, I am continually tortured by my totally unavailable "crush." I wish I could really explain how badly I want to bang this guy!!!! JUST ONE NIGHT!!! HELL JUST ONE KISS! Oh who am I kidding..I wouldnt be able to stop there if he's as hot as I think he is. Of course, there's a nice guy from work that's super interested - but I SO.AM NOT! There isnt any spark at all!!!! I was trying to keep an open mind, but its just not working. My friend said "I cant explain it, he's so weird around you!" I also think he's a big puss.....I thought he might be a stud muffin since he works out so much, but no such luck. He's the weakest link on the softball team...and that's no exaggeration. He whines about his calf that's been healed for weeks now...Thank heavens he's 3 floors above me and we dont have to interface at work. My crush on the other hand, I always find an excuse to visit his cube ...Oh the fantasies...about doing dirty things at work..in the stairwell..under the desk..on the desk (like him pulling my panties off with his teeth)...on the chair...Someone put me out of my misery! The batteries just arent taking care of business anymore! WAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAH!