Sorry
Hi everyone. Sorry I've been so lax with everything - from my blog, to my site. There just arent enough hours in the day. Because I've been so terrible, I'm going to try and update you on everything, NOW. WARNING: LONG POST AHEAD!
So lets start with Gus - my furry kid that I love more than I can say. He's been sick for over a month now (if you're a member at Ebanned, you saw my auction asking for help with his vet bills). What do I mean by sick? At this point, we (the vet and I) dont know what's wrong with him, or what to try next. We're thinking FUS (feline urinary syndrome) - I thought he'd be better with one round of antibiotics, but no such luck. In a few days, round 4 will be through :( Every time the meds run out, the symptoms return and we start medicating him again. He's gotten to the point that he runs from me when he sees the eyedropper in my hand - the stuff tastes awful. I feel so terrible because you cant tell them "mommy's trying to help you" - they just know it tastes like butt and they're tired of having stuff squirted in their mouth every day. I even switched his diet to a premium food called "Evolve" (hell I even think it smells good), in hopes of helping his urinary tract, but so far it hasnt helped either. (THANK YOU JEFF for buying Gus so many cans of food! I couldn't have done that on my own). I'm really beside myelf at this point, and I dont know what else to do :(
Next: Job. I cant say a whole lot about it because of the nature of it, but let's just say I landed a great gig with the federal government. I love it. It's fascinating, yet complex and brain draining at the same time. I'm still in training, and my brain is fried at the end of each day. Tha'ts fine though, because I've decided that brainless work isnt my thing and I need to be challenged. I hope to go back to school in the fall and take a couple more accounting classes so I can apply to be an ACCOUNTANT in the next year or so. Man, I never ever though I'd say I want to be an accountant! I feel like a nerd! Oh well, NERDS RULE!
Last for now: Dating. I'll keep this one short so I dont bore you to death. WHAT THE FUCK IS WRONG WITH ME? Its been 2 years since my last relationship and I still have NO INTEREST, at all, in dating. I joined an on line dating site, and that was going well..then as soon as someone asked me out, I freaked and havent been on the site or emailed him since. I thought, when would I like to see him - and the more I thought about it, the more I realized that there wasnt any hour of any day that I wanted to go out on a date - that I'd rather be alone, or with family, or doing yard work. I find myself, still - attracted to those that I shouldnt be - aka, married men because I view them as "safe." - that I'll never have to worry about a commitment because of their current relationship. I have the major hots for someone at work - and he's married. I wonder if I'd want him so badly if he were single? Guess I'll never know. My best friend is ready to strangle me - she has a few guys on the line. She said "its just nice to have the company of the opposite sex sometimes" - I'm sure she's right, but that still doesnt make me want to date. I'm really struggling with my emotions. I'm not getting any younger - and soon I'll be wrinkly and unattractive :( I just don't know anymore :(
So lets start with Gus - my furry kid that I love more than I can say. He's been sick for over a month now (if you're a member at Ebanned, you saw my auction asking for help with his vet bills). What do I mean by sick? At this point, we (the vet and I) dont know what's wrong with him, or what to try next. We're thinking FUS (feline urinary syndrome) - I thought he'd be better with one round of antibiotics, but no such luck. In a few days, round 4 will be through :( Every time the meds run out, the symptoms return and we start medicating him again. He's gotten to the point that he runs from me when he sees the eyedropper in my hand - the stuff tastes awful. I feel so terrible because you cant tell them "mommy's trying to help you" - they just know it tastes like butt and they're tired of having stuff squirted in their mouth every day. I even switched his diet to a premium food called "Evolve" (hell I even think it smells good), in hopes of helping his urinary tract, but so far it hasnt helped either. (THANK YOU JEFF for buying Gus so many cans of food! I couldn't have done that on my own). I'm really beside myelf at this point, and I dont know what else to do :(
Next: Job. I cant say a whole lot about it because of the nature of it, but let's just say I landed a great gig with the federal government. I love it. It's fascinating, yet complex and brain draining at the same time. I'm still in training, and my brain is fried at the end of each day. Tha'ts fine though, because I've decided that brainless work isnt my thing and I need to be challenged. I hope to go back to school in the fall and take a couple more accounting classes so I can apply to be an ACCOUNTANT in the next year or so. Man, I never ever though I'd say I want to be an accountant! I feel like a nerd! Oh well, NERDS RULE!
Last for now: Dating. I'll keep this one short so I dont bore you to death. WHAT THE FUCK IS WRONG WITH ME? Its been 2 years since my last relationship and I still have NO INTEREST, at all, in dating. I joined an on line dating site, and that was going well..then as soon as someone asked me out, I freaked and havent been on the site or emailed him since. I thought, when would I like to see him - and the more I thought about it, the more I realized that there wasnt any hour of any day that I wanted to go out on a date - that I'd rather be alone, or with family, or doing yard work. I find myself, still - attracted to those that I shouldnt be - aka, married men because I view them as "safe." - that I'll never have to worry about a commitment because of their current relationship. I have the major hots for someone at work - and he's married. I wonder if I'd want him so badly if he were single? Guess I'll never know. My best friend is ready to strangle me - she has a few guys on the line. She said "its just nice to have the company of the opposite sex sometimes" - I'm sure she's right, but that still doesnt make me want to date. I'm really struggling with my emotions. I'm not getting any younger - and soon I'll be wrinkly and unattractive :( I just don't know anymore :(
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