Another day, a better day....

Yesterday was one of the roughest days I've had in a long time. Hell, this week has sucked to be completely forthright!

I found out I didnt get a job I really really wanted. Of course, I am filled with self doubt all over again. Seems like when I build myself up, I get knocked right back down again. I cried a lot. Granted, starting my period didnt help with the emotional roller coaster and the crying fits either. Its days like this I really dont like being a girl.

The bright side is, at least I have a job. Thank God moms are around to tell you shit like that. Yes, at least I have a job. I struggle trying to find the answer of "why." Why could I not have this job that I really wanted? I think I know what I want...better than anyone else..but apparently there is a bigger plan for me..will someone please share and tell me what the fuck is meant to come of my life and career? Because I sure as hell have wasted enough time trying to figure it out using my own brain cells, and failed miserably.

Well, enough of this depressing shit!

A busy week...

A lot has happened since last Sunday. I started a new job Monday. I am bored, bored bored. It is merely a paycheck. The commute is a fucking nightmare too.

About a month ago I interviewed for a position closer to home, for a company I'm familiar with. I WANT this job. It's very well suited to me, in every way. Well, a psych evaluation, quiz, and another interview later, I am waiting for final word. They told me last week that I would most likely hear something Fri or Monday...well, here it is..Monday, 613 pm and no word. I am a wreck (probably why I jumped into the remodel project, to distract myself). Of course, since I didnt hear anything, I assume the worst..that they dont want me, or that they cant make up their mind (they said I was one of 2 final candidates)...So alas, I have to go back to the boring job tomorrow :( If anyone out there reads this, say a prayer or something for me...I really feel in my heart this is where I belong.

D & E are on a mini-vacation...I feel bad, they only get to spend about 2 days in Hawaii - E found out after they made plans that he has to go on a business trip for his new job..thus cutting their trip seriously short :( Regardless, they both need to have some fun. Sis is stressing about moving everything from Nola back to Ohio (and she should be, the mother in law is assisting) - ugh...if you look up OVERBEARING in the dictionary there is a picture of her next to it. To complicate matters, the clean up crews in Nola damaged their home right after they left last weekend...does that suck or what? Survive a major hurricane and some dipshits back into their house and knock off a column (there are only 3, see picture)- and THEY RAN! No NOTE, NOTHING! So now she has to hire a contractor to fix it before they can sell the house....all these details are wearing on her, and she's so very emotional and worried...can you blame her? All of us just want this chapter of their lives to be over so they can r eally start living again...maybe in a couple of months that will be possible....but until then, we're all in for a rough ride...

Time for change!

So..I love my house..EXCEPT....for ONE room! My spare room! I dont know what in the hell I was thinking when I designed it..its so bad that I've never shared it with anyone! Any post I've ever made, any video I've ever made..EXCLUDES the evil room :) Well, I was zapped with inspiration a few weeks back, and last night I started the dreaded task of.....you probably guessed it, stripping wallpaper and border...UGH! I HATE this part! No wonder people's homes are the same for decades....talk about an energy sucker! Anyhoo, I snapped a few pictures so you could see the disarray I've created in a few short hours.... I promise the room will be fabulous...and unrecognizable upon completion!

D & E left for San Francisco and Hawaii yesterday, so that also left the opportunity to be productive without interrupting D's work (the room is her office until she/E buy a house here in Ohio).....I cant wait to see her face when she gets back in a week! Ha!

Oh, and a small note - sometimes I post more than once in a day - guess I guilt myself for going days at a time without saying anything..so be sure you check the o ther entries so you dont miss anything!

Just call me Martha FUCKING Stewart!

Wow..I dont know what's up with me today! Guess I just want to be sure that D & E have something to eat when they get back from Nola later this evening (and we need food to take for lunch this week)....so what have I been doing?

Hmm..I made CHILI. I made AN APPLE PIE! (I've NEVER made one in my life, but man it does smell good!). I made CARAMEL APPLES. I'm making vanilla pudding right now (out of the box of course). On the agenda, I'd like to make some zucchini muffins but I doubt I get that far!

I've spent more time in the kitchen today than I have cumulatively in my entire life...ha ha..