Another day, a better day....

Yesterday was one of the roughest days I've had in a long time. Hell, this week has sucked to be completely forthright!

I found out I didnt get a job I really really wanted. Of course, I am filled with self doubt all over again. Seems like when I build myself up, I get knocked right back down again. I cried a lot. Granted, starting my period didnt help with the emotional roller coaster and the crying fits either. Its days like this I really dont like being a girl.

The bright side is, at least I have a job. Thank God moms are around to tell you shit like that. Yes, at least I have a job. I struggle trying to find the answer of "why." Why could I not have this job that I really wanted? I think I know what I want...better than anyone else..but apparently there is a bigger plan for me..will someone please share and tell me what the fuck is meant to come of my life and career? Because I sure as hell have wasted enough time trying to figure it out using my own brain cells, and failed miserably.

Well, enough of this depressing shit!