I'm dying inside...
I know this blog is probably supposed to be lighthearted and fun..but its also therapeutic to me..so from time to time, if I need to vent..this is where it happens...amazing how just typing your feelings out can make you feel better.
So my job is hell. It took every ounce of my being not to walk out the door today. I refuse to leave an employe that way though..thats never, ever a good thing.
My car is for sale, my truck is for sale. As soon as the car sells (I want to get about $8K out of it), I am giving my notice at work. What am I leaving behind? A stupid stressful job with no benefits (other than medical insurance which was cancelled for 2 weeks because my boss didnt send in the premiums - even though they still came out of my check), an 80 mile commute each day (on the worst highways around here), huge gas prices....there isnt anything good at all.
Its time for me to be me, and that means being creative..for a living...I'm tired of giving so much of me to companies that I dont give a shit about...I will work as a casual employee (ya know, the temp thing-funny, I came from that industry and hated it..what a fucking nightmare! Its way different on the other side of things... will be nice just to go to work, do a job, and go home, and do it within a few miles of home!) while I write and publish a book with my sister, take Electronic Media classes at my alma mater starting in winter, promote my website, auction panties and other things, sell on Ebay (I invested in some wonderfully fun girlie items last weekend that will arrive in a couple of weeks-how ironic, the brand name is "MollynMe" - if that wasnt a sign from above I dont know what is)...and just let my damned creativity flow and ooze from my pores. It is the only way I can live.
I just hope I'm not being overly optimistic and "starry eyed". What really matters to me is that I have my family to support me, that I dont lose my home, and that I can feed the kitties...I have never been the risk taker (that would be my sis), but maybe it is time for me to go out on a limb..and see what happens...
So my job is hell. It took every ounce of my being not to walk out the door today. I refuse to leave an employe that way though..thats never, ever a good thing.
My car is for sale, my truck is for sale. As soon as the car sells (I want to get about $8K out of it), I am giving my notice at work. What am I leaving behind? A stupid stressful job with no benefits (other than medical insurance which was cancelled for 2 weeks because my boss didnt send in the premiums - even though they still came out of my check), an 80 mile commute each day (on the worst highways around here), huge gas prices....there isnt anything good at all.
Its time for me to be me, and that means being creative..for a living...I'm tired of giving so much of me to companies that I dont give a shit about...I will work as a casual employee (ya know, the temp thing-funny, I came from that industry and hated it..what a fucking nightmare! Its way different on the other side of things... will be nice just to go to work, do a job, and go home, and do it within a few miles of home!) while I write and publish a book with my sister, take Electronic Media classes at my alma mater starting in winter, promote my website, auction panties and other things, sell on Ebay (I invested in some wonderfully fun girlie items last weekend that will arrive in a couple of weeks-how ironic, the brand name is "MollynMe" - if that wasnt a sign from above I dont know what is)...and just let my damned creativity flow and ooze from my pores. It is the only way I can live.
I just hope I'm not being overly optimistic and "starry eyed". What really matters to me is that I have my family to support me, that I dont lose my home, and that I can feed the kitties...I have never been the risk taker (that would be my sis), but maybe it is time for me to go out on a limb..and see what happens...
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